Resolved

I was resolved to end 2006 in a leisurely manner after the Marathon of the Palm Beaches. For the next three weeks, I was not to think twice about my eating habits nor feel any guilt for not logging the 20+ miles in a week as I had during the previous few months.

That lasted 7 days.

In addition to going back to my diet plan of cutting off refined sugar, limiting myself to less than 100 grams of carbs per day (62 grams to be exact), and going back meals that are more protein and vegetable intensive (approximately 104 grams of protein, and as many vegetables it takes to keep myself feeling full), I'm also revising my work out schedule. I haven't made any final commitments, but I'm fitting yoga, strength conditioning, and speed work into my weekly regimen. I'm totally focused on my 2007 goals, which includes the following:

1. Next Race - Lehigh Valley Half Marathon
Goal time 1:45 / 1:50 - There are hills to consider, so I don't think 1:30 is attainable.

2. Marathon #2 - Quebec City Marathon on August 26th
I'm not cmmitted to this ... yet. But if I do, then it's about trimming down the 5:36 to something that's mildly respectable ... like 4 would be a good start.

3. Marathon #3 - Hampton's Marathon on September 30th
I am committed to this one, they just need to finish their website first. The goal here is to get the time down to 3:40 or below to qualify for Boston.

4. Marathon #4 - Philadelphia Marathon on November 18th
If I didn't qualify for the Boston yet, then this is it. If, and only if, this one doesn't pan out either, then it's back to Palm Beach. I must be able to qualify after working on this for a year ... right?

I think I'm suppose to plan a wedding somewhere in the middle of all of this, but the money situation isn't looking too good and it's something that I haven't prepared for. I thought that a small quick little thing (think Porn Star Fabulous with my Beau pimped out in a top hat and pengin tails, myself as the Asian love child of Pam Anderson and Rupaul, and Elvis to greet us at the alter), or maybe even something in the Islands (think sandy casual with the two of us in white linen and $800 scores a celebrant, licenses, and a meal for 20) would do. But no. My powers of persuasion of late are so not working as my laid back and comedic Beau slowly morphs into something a bit more ceremonious and traditional like his father, and sentimental like his mother.

I wish my parents had bothered to think of a wedding fund for me. Well ... there's a lot of things that I wish my parents had done, but right now, this is about it. This isn't for me ... this is for him. He has a right to this (as per western culture), and my situation is denying him this ceremony. Maybe all this marathoning is a way for me to avoid the emotionally and financially difficult topic ... maybe this is the wedding equivalent to the pink outfit I was frantically looking for before Palm Beach.

Whatever, I'll just have to keep on running. This thing will work out ... somehow. Right?